it’s 7:30am. on the fourth of july. and on our first day without work. and i’m awake & going.
i think that statement pretty much sums up how fast-paced our lives have been lately. i feel like we’re on a roller coaster. only we cannot get off. it just keeps going and going. i can’t pin point when we first fell into this super exhaustive state of being. i don’t know whether it was when preston graduated and everything just sped up. or if it was earlier than that. maybe it was after we got back from chicago. maybe it was just moving out of our apartment this weekend that did us in. it honestly could be any number of things. but i feel like we’re going a million miles an hour.
but the Lord keeps whispering to me, “it doesn’t have to be this way.”
he’s been pleading with me for the past couple of weeks to sloooooow down. or at least to truly REST when i have the chance to. to rest in Him. in who He is. in what He is doing in our lives. to be fully present. to take good time to sit with Him, fully focused. to not be writing support thank you notes. to not be frantically checking our support account. and even to stop reading just to learn. all of these things are good, but He has been telling me to slow down. and focus on Him first, and to just rest in Him. to let my soul slow down. to let Him restore it.
so that’s how i’ll be spending my morning today. i’ll be finally listening to Jesus. and resting in all that He is and the incredible things He has been doing in our lives. we’re 32 days away from leaving and we could not be more in awe of who He is and how He has made a way for us.
The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want.
He makes me lie down in green pastures.
He leads me beside still waters.
He restores my soul.
He leads me in paths of righteousness
for His name’s sake.